Im going to get personal on here because i don't really know what else to say. I have never liked going to school or listening to a lecture. My mind couldn't stay still. I was always thinking about other things or having day dreams. The more my life went on, the more my life started to fall apart. School became something that filled me up with anxiety to the point where i would be sick . I did whatever i could to get my high school diploma and end this cycle that i was reliving year after year.

I thought i was ready to go to college but then my mother got breast cancer and again i couldn't face life. It was like everyt time i wanted to keep going and keep learning something bad happened. Because my life was so depressing i ran from school.

We all deal with things in our life differently. I couldn't handle my brother and my father dying and then my mom getting breast cancer. theres no one left in my family.what would you do? how would you feel? would you care, anymore?

Amazingly enough i sadly carried on and made it all the way to 37. I owe the last two years of my life to my wife. She gave me the strength and the courage i needed to turn my life around. The career im in doesn't make enough money, its outdated, overly-stressful and and the economy is going to the dumps.

I am transitioning out of that life. I have to leave it behind. I have to have a growth-mindset. I am going to turn my life around for my 2nd half.

-valid