Well, I would like to keep this short, but sometimes nowdays, I feel very tired and sad.

I don't get any motivation to do anything.

It's been about 2 months since I have touched my computer and did any programming.

Is this mid life crisis (but I am just 19).

My health is also not very good, because of my renal agenesis my body couldn't produce enough heamoglobin so that I have a very bad case of anemia.

I don't know what should I do.