Hi everyone,

My name is Patrik Kiss, and I'm a junior web developer(I guess). I finished a 2 years software developer course a few months ago, and currently I have no job yet unfortunatelly.

I have knowledge in:
-HTML+CSS+JS
-Frameworks I can use: Jquery(JS), Bootstrap 4(CSS)
-Jquery ajax
-PHP(OOP,PDO)
-SQL-MySQL
-basics on .htaccess(making user friendly URLs)

I can create responsive and dynamic websites easily using the technologies above, I can organize my code, so it's nice and readable, I have a good problem solving skill too, I always think ahead, and create functions,methods that I can reuse in the future etc.

These are some basic, yet really useful skills a programmer should have(as I've heard many times).

But the problem is, that I keep feeling like even though I know these things, my knowledge is still really deficient.

Whenever I come here on DEV, reading articles, I always see ones about NodeJS,ReactJS,VueJS,GraphQL etc, and sometimes I would check on them out of simple curiorsity, and I always find myself barely understanding anything from the article, like code examples. Same when I search for solutions on Stack overflow, and I see all those complex code. And whenever this happens, I always get kind of demotivated, since I always realize that in reality, I barely know anything yet.

Same thing happens when I search for jobs, and companies barely look for beginners/juniors, or even if they do, 90% of the time knowledge in the technologies I mentioned above are required.
And in times like these, I always think "How am I gonna ever get a job like this?".

I code a lot at home, and honestly I really like doing it, and I'm constantly trying to improve myself, by working on bigger projects, like I've been working on a website for 3 months now, and I'm always proud of myself when I manage to solve something I couldn't do until then, like when I finally managed to solve pagintion in PHP I was so happy, I even made an article of it. Don't know how much of a good solution or code it is, but this is probably what I'm the proudest of now. But these "happy feelings" sometimes disappear when I realize that it's actually not even a big deal, it only is for me.

I know I'm probably being too hard on myself, considering I just finished my studies, and I'm still just a junior, but still, even towards juniors there are such high expectations nowadays that it's crazy, and I don't feel like I can meet them at all.

Do you have any advice to vanish these feelings and stay motivated all the time?